Let it Be!

How many times have I heard that Beatles song? How many times have I sung along? But did I ever stop and really listen? The other day while driving in the car the song came on and as I went to change the station I stopped and listened...

When I find myself in times of trouble

Mother Mary comes to me

Speaking words of wisdom

Let it be

In my hour of darkness

She is standing right in front of me

Speaking words of wisdom

Let it be

Three simple words... Let it be

Make peace and give hope but.... Let it be!

Just because I want something or someone to change does not mean that is what they want or what is best for them...

My siblings are making a choice not to speak to each other or be in each others lives... I can not change or control it.... Let it be!

My ex husband is not the father I want him to be.... But that is my interpretation... How much time and energy have I exhausted being angry and resentful toward him for that? Way to much... I can not move forward if I am shackled to the past.... I can not change or control it...

Let it be!

I need to let go of things that clutter my mind with things that I can not change or control..

Let it be and let it go!

Guilt over past decisions and poor choices... My past does not equal my future...

Let it be and let it go... Like a soft breeze I hear these words in my ear... I think I am finally ready to listen to the words of my new theme song!

There will be an answer.....Whisper words of wisdom.... Let it be!

Spring....

It is the first day of Spring and it is a time for rebirth.... not just for the plants but for me as well! The dark and endless winter is over and life begins! It is time for me to spread my wings and fly!

Okay that sounds great but how?? How do you create a life that honors who you are now.... Not who you were before?? I guess you have to start by figuring out who you are now or more importanly who do you want to be? That is a loaded question...... The only thing that is standing in my way of having the exact life I want is me..... Well now that kind of makes all of the excuses or the mantras I tell myself.... I will do it later... I do not have enough money.... It is not time yet...go to hell !! I guess I can no longer hold off taking responsibility!!

Alrighty then.... What do I want for my life.... Dah dah dah dah.....

First let me tell you where I am and maybe that will help me put me on the right road...

I am in my early 40's.... soon to be mid forties!! Single..... divorced for 6 years.... Mother of 3 girls..... 18,13,& 9. Teacher.... love my job! I bought the house I grew up in and am trying to claim it as mine. Easier said than done.

I hope this blog will be a way for me to claim my new life while making me accountable. If I put it out there in cyber space and there is a chance someone might read it, then I had better be prepared to follow through!

Today's goal..... Well to be honest it was to revisit this blog and start the journey.... I will enjoy this first day of spring and let my mind dream of all of the possibilities!